It is okay to experience oblivion, which for me has become a place of rest. It is a void without existence where I become present. It empties my mind of all the worldly trash and harsh energies constantly attacking me. I see everyone transparently now, and I know first-responders and those, who work in the medical field that see dozens or hundreds of injuries and death must become detached from any patient young or old. Over time, they lose empathy, and for me that is not something I want or would really desire.
Though, as a caregiver I have had patients I took care of and built a relationship with, and because of my nature if they died, it is like losing a family member or someone I deeply love, which would hurt me emotionally. I have not been with anyone when they died nor do I want to, but I have heard it can be a valuable experience seeing them go to the other side with a smile on their face, which is how we would wish everyone could die. The sadness comes from losing that person, but for them, it is passing into eternal life, which makes all life a continuous journey.
This earth is not our final home, but it could be just in the same place but another dimension beyond our current perception. It may be that we are so blind to this dream we are living in and will not understand until we fully awaken, which I hope happens for me in this lifetime to give me deeper connection to everything, everyone, and everyplace that was, is, and will be. Mindfulness or awareness is bringing me closer to knowing what heaven is like, because the hell I have already experienced on this earth is of man and a place of chaos I have been several times, even if in my mind.
Never discount the reality of what you do not believe nor do not depend entirely on what you do believe. Over the ages, we have been in a program, like that of a computer or a hierarchical network that determines we are here for a reason, and nothing happens by chance or accident. Determinism is believing both good and bad happen for a reason, which for me, would be ignorant to believe. There is one deity for most people and even a belief of what we know as heaven or enlightenment with having a deity.
Certain religions make you have a belief that manipulated you over time, but still we follow the crowd and the people we grew up with and believe the same way. We do not question what we learned is truth, which may and is not true at all. Yet you cannot oppose the current authorities. Being of independent thinking and questioning everything is not something we should do, but I do and even question my own thinking sometimes.
We learn not to question our elders, and their teachings or stories passed down through the generations.
In all respects, each of us has a unique story to tell about our life and experiences.